It doesn’t seem like there are any words to describe the shock one’s system can go through. First, your breathing becomes a task that requires focus. Once that is under control then the heartbeat syncopation must slow. The spiral of information, firing of neurons and the memories are overloading the brain’s processing center. Chaotic interruption creates a difficulty in processing the realization. He is gone. He is no longer with us. The choir of voices mumbling sympathies and their condolences. The hand on the shoulder creates a shuddering through the body. If one tear falls then you are toast. You take a deep breath and force the tears to away. It cannot be true. How is this possible? Truth becomes irrelevant. Truth too painful to bear becomes a whisper in the background. He is dead and no longer living. He is now only a memory. He will return to the ground and life will go on. Brain cannot compute this information. How did this happen? Was it preventable? How is the family coping? How can I be a support? God, why?
These all too familiar questions spiral through the brain at rampant speeds. Truth is shock is the one thing the brain is never prepared to deal with. It has two options fight or flight. When the brain reaches capacity to cope and cannot fight anymore then numbness starts to make its appearance. Tears may join and then all one can do is wait out the cycle. Loss is inevitable in this life. No one ever denies this truth. Personally, having faced loss and grief recently I can truly say you never really prepare for the way your body will automatically respond. It has been created to protect itself. When it has had too much it simply goes into a sleep mode. Everything shuts down which gives the system a chance to reboot. Once a reboot is possible, the brain’s server suddenly has become aware that the system temporarily crashed. The emotions, the server’s data is now able to be carried to the other pathways. They can now be processed. The body suddenly becomes aware of the emotion that needs to be released. Anger. Sadness. Confusion. The emotion now has the opportunity to be read. Body and brain now on the same page can carry out the tasks at hand. Survive. Breathe. Express. Be.
Overload. Crash. Reboot. Process. Sleep.
The process can take as long as it takes. There is no quick fix. You can’t just unplug and hope everything just becomes normal again. The good news is the programmer knows what He is doing. He knows how the system works. He knows how to reprogram. He knows how to complete a reboot. He can change the code if need be.
Trauma is not unavoidable. It shows us where we are susceptible to viruses. WE can trust the programmer. He is good. He knows what our system needs. He will keep us maintained and He will take us through defragmentation if necessary. It will be okay.
You may go through a crash but a reboot is always possible with Him in control. So let Him have access to your hardrive and CPU and watch what He will do.